Escaping Merci Neel

Limerence is a dopamine-fueled state of intense yet potentially unrealistic obsession on a limerent object (LO). It is a state witch is defined by its intense highs and lows, and brought on by uncertainty in the LOs reciprocation. -source? Myself, I made it up.

Merci Neel is a character I created to represent my Limerence. She helps me think of the overwhelming feelings around limerence as a personified thing that I can acknowledge is technically just myself, which keeps me from getting too delusional and lost in a different reality I fabricated on accident.

I’ve struggled with Limerence since I was around 13 years old, and I’ve always felt a deep sense of shame around telling others about the way that I feel, and the ways in which I’ve given into the obsession. So what if I biographically recall every moment with an LO In my diary, or make shrines in a secret basement room? Ok… maybe thats admittedly a little bit over the top, my point though, its hard to explain the difference between limerence and a “regular crush” without admitting to being a little intense. The feeling are so intense, but us limerents are trying to keep it together, I promise.

Dear fellow limerent friend, if you are struggling, I want you to know that you are absolutely not alone! I know just how lonely it can feel when the loved ones in your life get sick of hearing about it all the darn time, which hey, I understand, I suppose I’ve driven mine a little insane in the past… however, when the sadness gets really intense, which i know well how prone it is to do so, where does one turn?